Now, nows

I could never fit my experience of now into a Now. I didn’t have a Now. My now is many; nows. My nows are later. And have many pre-nows and post-nows. Diffused nows. Fractured nows. Liminality of needed biological mediation of nows all around the Now. Nows that are behind, in and through, in front of Now.  Nows that I held outside of normative Now. In excess of normative Now. The singularity of normative Now is really two... three... four and more nows. But now... I’ve been spending time with my bodymind sensations of Now and I do have a Now. It just has a lot of instantly distantly divergently paced and echoed parts. I experience a lot of nows within my Now. I have Now, nows.